Step 1: Get your playlist together, put it on random, and play!
Step 2: Pick your favorite lines from the first 25 songs that play!
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from!
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly

1. Its like a bad movie, she's lookin through me, if you were me then you'd be screaming someone shoot me.
2. Et, j'attend la, ou rien bouge maintenant Meme si je ne te vois pas, Je peux retrouver ce que l'on cherche dans la nuit, meme si c'est tres difficile, je danserai mon chemin avec les loups. (sorry i don't know how to put the accents on the letters)
3. You got that top pulled down and that radio on, baby, And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong, After the boys of summer have gone.
4. So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies, so concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside.
5. (ok i cheated but i hated the one that came up and it would've just been wrong to type it up) So this is my new freedom, Its funny I don't remember being chained
6. Faith is just a sunrise away, I love you more my baby with every new day
7. I need a boy like you like a hole in my head
8. An old pair of jeans or an evening gown, You still see the same girl that you found
9. Turn up the corners of your lips, Trace the moment, fall forever.
10. Boku-tachi wa samayoi nagara, ikite yuku doko made mo, Shinjite're hikari motome, Arukidasu kimi to ima
11. These city walls ain't got no love for me, I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
12. And when you looked into my eyes felt a sudden sense of urgency
13. Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all, Nothings like before
14. Is that your wife, your girlfriend or just your main bitch? You take a pick, while i'm rubbin the hips, touchin lips to the top of the dick and then wheww
15. You've got to press it on you, You just, think it, that what you do, Thats what you do baby
16. She wanted just to see inside, she wanted just to know whats right, she wanted her life to be alright.
17. All she wants is just that something to hold onto, thats all she needs
18. I wish it didn't hurt, hurt like this, To say these things to you. I'll sacrifice one moment for one truth.
19. Cause saying I love you has nothing to do with meaning it.
20. Where you are seems to be as far as an eternity, Outstretched arms open hearts, And if it never ends then when to we start?
21. I'll take care of you oh, Have faith that when you call my name I'll be there, I'll be right there
22. Itsumo sasaete kureru hitotachi ni, higorono omoi wo kometa rhapsody e, Appreciation no kimochi wo todoke
23. I'll be a beautiful let down, Thats what I'll forever be, And though it may cost my soul, I'll sing for free
24. Cause i will never ever walk away, I'll find a way, She could never love you like i do
25. And it hurts me, cause i care and i'm telling you why, I'm unhappy so if you love me, a little bit is not that much to ask to make things right

geez you people are annoying. fine, an update already!

prom was march 12. we got all dressed up and jason looked super super awesomely handsome in his tux. the theme was A Night in Paris, whether the relation was noticed before that was decided is unknown. but its funny anyway. apparently the decorations sucked compared to last year, and i think most of the budget was spent creating a large, cardboard Eiffel Tower. good photo op though. i got jason to dance! hung out with friends later, but called it a pretty early night cuz jason had to leave for Jersey early the next day. ^_^ i'd put up pictures but when i uploaded them to photobucket it made them really really small. so maybe later when i feel like changing them.

hmm what else.....we went to the creek the other day. it was me, jason, and katie bassler, and we brought a cooler for drinks and my potato salad. i even got sparkling cider the day before, which we didn't get to drink until after we dropped off bassler. which is ok, less splitting of the drink. anyway, the creek was fun! we floated down the rapids, and tried to pants jason which didn't really work, and found a baby turtle floating downcurrent. jason picked it up out of the water and was holding it on his palm and i was like 'it has a tail...snapping turtles are the only ones with tails like that...ah!'. so i grabbed it by its shell and showed it to the little kids on the bank who wanted to see it. katie named it raphael. overall it was a good day. and we went to maggie moos for ice cream. yummeh. and we hassled lindsay at work. its all good.

so today was the seniors last full day of classes. erin came to lunch and was crying so we tried to cheer her up. the next two days are normal for the rest of us, seniors have finals. then more normal days for us until the 7th and 8th, those are finals. 9th is the official last day, but who shows up for that? 7th is also graduation day. gotta go to that, lots of friends graduating this year.

WE'LL BE SENIORS IN TWO DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOT!!!!!!!!! 

today has been full of the most ups and downs i've ever experienced in one day.

last night i couldn't sleep. i kept thinking about all the possibilities. so i got like 2 hours of sleep. so the day kinda sucked right from the get go. then i got to school at the same time as everybody else so i got to talk to them as i walked in. first period i got stuck with the slacker group in hockey, so i got stuck doing all the work and got hit a few times. i have a bruised bone on my left arm, which i actually use. then we watched plays in english, it was cool. we got cookies ^-^. lunch was disappointing. then i found out i have a 78 in math and the homework was really easy. then by the end of 9th period i was exhausted and just wanted to go home and sleep but i'd told ms. chickey that i'd go to set design, cuz she really needed experienced people. but then i got there and it was pretty fun. then afterwards i was all 'omg i have to drop off katie and go to the bank and deposit a check and go to cvs and go home to eat and then i have to be at emily's all in 1 hour!' >.<;;; i was not a happy camper. i talked to jason while i was stuffing food down my throat and i kept snapping at him. ;_; i hate snapping at him. and i had no reason to snap at him anymore either, the test came out negative, so then i just felt like a complete bitch.

but yeah, so with that one thing out of the way, i just have a play to memorize and perform for wednesday and a 4 page critique on Moll Flanders due thursday, of which i haven't finished reading the book. >.< it will be a miracle. but oh well, as long as it gets done.

i was only at emily's house for an hour and a half, and we got done early enough that i went over to jasons so i'd atleast see him today. as soon as i got there i felt TONS better just seeing him. unfortunately, i was still really tired so as soon as i hit his bed i was out like a light. ^_^; i didn't wake up until 15 minutes before i had to leave. i felt kinda bad, but he got some studying done while i slept. and i felt tons better having done that, so it worked out i guess. i was still kinda shaken up over it, but being around him always calms me down.

so yeah that was my day. toodeloo!

mindsay is freakin out on me! my layouts all screwed up!!! oh well. i plan on doing a major update on all my accounts on every site, so i'll update this after work. toodles! :)

i hate myself.

i don't even know why i get like this.

jason wrote a beautiful little thing on his xanga about when i came over to his house when he was upset.

i wanted to write the same thing about him. but i couldn't think of anything to write.

all i can write is this:

jealousy is when you never want to mention her name because you believe he's thinking about her all the time.

jealousy is hiding the thought in the back of your head that says 'he's only dating you to get close to her'.

fear is thinking he isn't as happy as he says he is and is only settling for second best.

fear is believing i'm just like my mother, i'll never be truly happy with what i find, i'll never find him.

fear is telling myself that its not true, but secretly believing it has to be true. 

fear is being terrified that one day i'm going to find out the only reason i love him is to prove my mother wrong.

sorrow is thinking that one day he may leave me for someone better.

sorrow is knowing he could've found somebody better than me.

irrationality is knowing that he willingly chose to date me, but my brain refuses to grasp that concept.  

lack of self-confidence is, even after everything he's done for me, still believing that i have to prove something to him.

frustration is knowing that these are only the tip of the iceberg, but everything else can't be put into words. but they're mostly tied with whats already written.

i plan to keep adding to this as i think of more things to write.

he found this blog earlier this week, but whether or not he deleted the link or will ever see this, i have to write it.

the good, the bad, the ugly.

love them or leave them, these are my demons.